Thursday, October 17, 2013

Wash Your Hair, Twice.


So this morning as I was going through my normal ‘getting ready’ routine, I was hit hard with a bad hair day. "First World" girl problems, I know. My hair wouldn’t do anything except look... bad. And it felt like straw. It was really weird. I’m pretty sure I accidently washed it with body wash instead of shampoo, but that's besides the point. I don’t know if any of you (ladies) are like me, but when I have a bad hair day, I tend to have a bad day, day. I mean this in the least vain way possible but I have to feel good about myself, what I look like, and what I’m wearing if I’m going to start my day off right. Otherwise, I just feel sloppy and off sync and that's exactly how I felt after getting ready this morning. I didn’t feel prepared for the day. That’s been the story of my life lately.  And so today, I decided no more!! Today is the day take back control of my life and so I washed my hair again! <-- pretty deep stuff, I know. And you know what, my hair has been full and fluffy ever since. And do you know what again? I’ve been having a great day.  For the first time in a very long time, I feel like the fog has been lifted, all that, just from washing my hair again. It will make sense soon, stay with me....

You see, I’ve been in a bit of a funk here lately. If you read my last post from Sept., then you already knew that. 
I thought about going into the details of what’s been weighing on my shoulders lately but I don’t want to bore anyone with my tiny life problems, and definitely don’t want to be seen as a complainer, because that’s not who I am. I’m very grateful and blessed with the life God has given me. But life deals all of us an unfavorable hand from time to time. It’s what makes life, life. And I would be kidding myself if I were to say I didn’t bring any of this on myself. It’s no secret I live for a fast paced, busy, tad-bit stressful life. The pressure and challenge is what drives me. But every once in a while, it seems one tiny hiccup can throw it all off track, and it starts to affect every aspect of my life, leaving me to question, “Is this worth it? Is this the path I’m supposed to be on?” It’s an overwhelming feeling, ESPECIALLY when you are a single mom. My decisions in life just don't effect me, they effect Talon too.

So that’s where I’ve been lately, and for far too long. And after a lot of talking, thinking, praying, and one too many bad hair days, I decided it’s time for me to quit playing the victim, fix the issues I can, don’t worry about the ones I can’t, wash my hair again, and take back control of my life.

And so here I am. Today is a new day. It's a fresh start. I'll no longer cry about the way things aren't and embrace they way they are.....   I’m back!!!

 

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